Tuesday, March 27, 2007
well, guess the few of you people who do read my blog would be thinking why i stop blogging. haha. its because last week was my first week at work. really alot to do at work. and after work, went to hospital to see ah ma..
ah ma fell on wednesday and was sent to SGH. she hasnt been eating since chinese new year. and now she is still the same. eating really little and complaining of her stomach pain. her stomach is also bloated and filled with fluid. so far still no news about how serious the fluid is. so we'll have to wait till the doctor tells us how serious it is.
been quite upset with SGH regarding my ah ma. they keep saying that they will do the scan asap, but whenever im there, they never seem to get anything done.. which really pisses me off. and my ah ma already is so skinny and has pancreas cancer which has already spread to her liver and lungs, why dont you do things a little faster. and if she's alright, she can be discharged what. who in the world would want to stay on the hospital bed..
not that i am not looking on the bright side, but i dont think my ah ma will be able to live till 2008. really sad to think about how she has brought me up when my parents were away in another country. use to hate her constant naggings but now, i will let her scold me as long as she want to. being in the hospital the past few days, i felt good that i can repay her for looking after me. holding her cold hands in mine and keeping her hands warm. asking her if she is still cold and keep talking to her and asking her if she wants to eat or drinks. then once, while i was holding her hand, she fell asleep while i held her hands.. it felt so nice to watch her sleep so peacefully on the hospital bed. hope ah ma gets a little better soon.
on a brighter note, sunday was a day of suntan man.. really tan till i really red now!!! still red after two days and it still hurts!!! went with jek and mich. then after that we played mahjong which i suggested. and in the end, i lost the most $$$.. sian.. then yesterday, i finally watched 300.. and the show was really good man. the way they fight those people, really damn cool. close to LOTR style.. but the ending was really lame la. as they surrended and got killed by the arrows..
other than that, its been work work work and also uni application. finally settled it. if not my mum will start nagging and i also can finally rest my mind and wait for my future. if it doesnt work out, i might be going to TP to do bioengineer. well, praying hard that things will turn out alright for me..
Josh Loh
9:11 PM
Wednesday, March 07, 2007
past few days been practically staying at home doing nothing. and i felt those two earthquakes which made me think that i was going to faint at home when im nua-ing..
one thing i can remember till now is that i made a dream the other night.. it was a really nice, lovey-duvey kinda dream i guess.. the setting was somewhere along esplanade there, together with my ex and a friend(cant really rmbr who it is).. well, we were walking by the sea, wanting to patch things up or something, then we held hands, a sign which means we did patch things up.. and when we held hands, suddenly, in the sky, there was a large skilled fireworks.. really really cool setting.. but, unfortunately, my sister called me regarding a job interview and the nice but sad dream ended..
then yesterday, went for my canon pc show training at harbour front... learnt a little bit about the printers and hope tmr will go well.. hope to have some fun there and dont screw up my job.. haha.. then today went for a temp job interview, it went pretty well with the office and im hoping that i do get the job...
been watching prison break for the past few days too.. really nice show i tell you... just watchin it make me wonder if there is someone in this whole who can really do what he did in the show.. haha.. but until now, season 1 ended with a twist and season 2 is getting more interesting as i watch on... cant wait till all the episodes come out!!!!
thats all for now, mummy ill.. so i got to look after her she recovers..
Josh Loh
9:16 PM
