Friday, May 25, 2007
today was suppose to be a good day.. but ended up really bad.. but at least there is still one more chance.. although chancesare not high, i am hoping still.. clinging onto what little hope i have left..
Josh Loh
12:11 AM
Friday, May 18, 2007
today has been another torture day to me.. i have so much to let off my chest but there isnt an outlet for me to do so.. maybe there is, maybe there isnt.. but i think today really was damn tortureous to my mind sia..
so many F**king things has gone through in my mind i tell you.. my deceased grandma, my future studies, my parents, getting married in the not so near future.. there are still so many which i cant remember..
my mind has been spinning non-stop since i recovered.. even when i was ill, it didnt stop spinning.. really praying hard and i also prayed to my grandma, tell her to look over my family during this not so good time..
well, it may not be as bad as what some other people might be going through out there, but its bad enough to me.. this feeling is almost as close to losing my grandma..
Josh Loh
11:51 PM
Wednesday, May 16, 2007
been down with stomach flu the past few days.. i forgot what it feels like to be ill man.. not that i like it or what, but its really been quite some times since i last fell ill... at first thought it was just common flu and fever, but today i realised that it is actually stomach flu.. whatever i eat, doesnt stay inside me for less than a hour.. and i forgot this same feeling which i had during my jc days..
not only has my body been through a tough test, my mind has also been through much turmoil.. i thought i had seen the last of the quarrelling from my parents.. but no!!! it's not game over yet i tell you.. another chapter is about to begin... and this time, its pretty bad man.. haiz.. really am scared and worried about things between them.. i mean, when you are in the middle, you can see why they are doing the things they are doing... but to the both of them, it seems as though each actions is something out to spike the other party..
dad might lose his job as his company is in heavy debts.. and dad bought his parents up to malaysia to spend the weekend.. probably before my dad loses his job.. but however, my mum feels that he is doing it just to make my mum angry.. because my maternal grandma's 49th day after her death is tomorrow and my dad still can bring his parents up to kl..
its really been a torture to stay home these few days.. wanting to keep my mum company after having quit my job.. and hearing her say those stuff which can be really hard for me to hear.. haiz.. its really difficult but i guess its life.. hope things start to work out between my parents...
Josh Loh
8:31 PM
Tuesday, May 01, 2007
just spend labour day mostly out of the house.. last night manage to have a small gathering with some sec school friends.. ate at billy bomber's.. i tell you, i very long never eat so full liao la.. then went over to lim's place to play ps2 while i tried really hard to stay awake while brian and kenny were playing.. but i failed terribly.. lol..
then today, met up with raphael and jae hee... went to somewhere near maxwell market to have some really good korean food.. was really good and tasty.. first time im eating good nice authentic korean food.. we had a good time chatting and talking about rubbish and also about our past.. haha.. it was a really good gathering.. then headed to cinin hit some pool before leaving for home..
dinne with parents at riverwalk place.. ate some indonesian bbq.. was nice and wasnt too full.. then we walked the new shopping centre at clarke quay, CENTRAL.. bought 24 mini dounuts and also 10 fish-shaped pancakes.. haha.. and guess what, my elder sis and i finished it in 15min.. haha.. then it really made the both of us relaly full..
guess its the end of the holiday and tomorrow theres work.. sian 1/2.. but nvm.. its jus one more week till i stop work and can have a good rest.. haha..
Josh Loh
11:39 PM
