Wednesday, August 30, 2006
on the verge of breaking down. really really tired. and i really really feel like crying. my days have not really been good since last week. and this week was not much better. well, there were some happy times over the past few days. but mostly, there were quite lousy days. happy thought first, found out that the girl that i wanted to know from AHM was my best friend, hui huan's, buddy. means got good chance to know her better..
well, today when i left the shuttle bus, i realised that my dad will soon be leaving his current job and getting a lower paid job. well, i nearly teared when my younger sis told me. and when i got home, i read the email which had the details of him quitting, i also cried in front of my mum who was in front of my having her dinner. i duno why i feel like this. but it just make me want to cry. maybe its because im growing up and realising how much responsibility there is to life. not only about having fun and living day by day. there is so much much more to life than jus surfing the net and watching tv. really wished i do not have to grow up. and just remain a child for life. but there's no point running away from reality. i guess i just have to suck it up and move on.
Josh Loh
9:32 PM
Sunday, August 27, 2006
i can say that i am proud of myself today. i completed my second half marathon and this time is did it in 2.5hrs.. and i got myself a medal.. which i did not get last year. well, some events happened over the run. i was thinking about some stuff. some people like to comment that the younger guys cant run as fast as the older guys in camp. but while i was running, i realised that running fitness differs from people.. and not everyone can run as fast as others.. so i just want to tell those older guys who looked down on younger guys who cant run, LEAVE US ALONE!!! let us run at our own pace. why should you control our mind. i think its bullshit..
then during the race, eng long and i were running 'with' two ladies from ntu dragon boat.. we were swapping the lead and we took turns to lead each other.. which was kinda funny as i told eng long that maybe at the end of the race we should ask for their numbers. and at the end of the race, we walked passed them but did not ask for their numbers. then when we were having our branch(breakfast + lucnh) eng long found out the names of the girl who's number i wanted to ask. cause his friend also from ntu dragonboat. so hopfully he can find a way to get the numbers or email i also happy.
tomorrow got sig ict. then might need to go and collect the safra fund for their cohension. hope i need not go sia.. will ask LTC Andrew tomorrow. well, going to bed now. knee, inner shin and lower back damn pain. dunno how i going to walk to camp tomorrow.
Josh Loh
10:12 PM
Friday, August 25, 2006
kinda upset at not being able to play my next match in the SAFSA OPEN. was happy to have made it into the final 16 of the competition. but guess my luck has ended here and i will have to wait for the interformation to come before i will get my next match. and recently i have found out that it is not easy to juggle between tennis and work. i have been really busy work my office(brigade) work. and also i had my SAFSA OPEN and also tennis trainings to attend. i know that LTC Andrew tell me to get my priorities right. but its really difficult.. i know i am the ASO of 23 SIB. but tennis is also my love of my life, why cant i have the freedom to say yes? well, shall not moan. at least i got to play tennis during office hours. thank you LTC Andrew and CPT Patrick for letting participate in the 9div tennis team.
was doing my DOO(duty orderly officer) in camp yesterday. then in the morning today, after reading vincent's blog, i found out that my spec(3SG Sim) actually got reprimanded quite badly by my OPS Warrant, MWO Tang. he actually scolding sim's upbringing and stuff like that. warrant tang has not really liked sim since he stepped into 23SIB. and even when i entered the brigade, he kinda always picked on sim and usually task him with the less important stuff. and even when we moved into NSOTS, he has stop breathing fown his neck. i guess its really difficult on sim's part as im sure he too wants to do his part and help the brigade. and i guess we all deserve a chance at one point or another in our lives. i WILL write an email to warrant tang to ask him to give sim a chance to prove himself. and i hope that sim will not bear too big a grudge against him and warrant is also just doing what is being paid for.
i feel that what vincent said on is blog is true. being human beings, we all need our break at some point or another. no way that you can ask a human being to work non-stop forever. IT IS NEVER POSSIBLE. well, even the officers in my office also surely will take a break in some form or another. be it smoking, drinking coffee, walking around office. i bet even warrant tang himself is guilty of this at times. is just that not many people witness it. we are not perfect and we can never be perfect. we should all try to work with each other since we all in the same office. well, there are exceptions though. shall not elaborate. haha. *(some of you might know what i mean)
weekend is here, but its not much of a weekend though for me. tomorrow will have to go down to see 56SAB do their mod brief. its more of a learning experience for my mob brief later in the year. gues i should see it as a learning opportunity and not as a punishment.. haha.. then sunday, half the day will be taken up by the army half marathon. going to run with my div comd and a flag.. wth man!!! carry flag and run 21km.. they got to be crazy lor. well, we'll see how on sunday then.. then monday was supposed to be a off-in-lieu for my branch. but as i have a ICT(reservist for nsman) on monday, guess what? NO OFF-IN-LIEU... haha.. but hope it will get paid back.. i am also a full-time soldier who still looks forwards to getting days off and taking leave. so much for now. till i face this computer again.
serene wu xiao ling.. stop being a copy cat. and i still love my dad deep deep. laugh all you want. but i still love him as much as before.
Josh Loh
11:03 PM
Monday, August 21, 2006
watched the break-up over the week end. kinda nice movie to watch la.. i suggest those who are having relationship problems to bring your partner to catch the movie. really will make you understand how to treasure your partner the right way. duno how to explain but after you watch the movie, you will understand what i mean. anyway i hope that in the near future, i hope that my partner will understand my needs and accomodate with me. and i definitely will treat you back the same way..
then we went to walk around and had andersen's ice cream. bought serene a brownie with two scoops of ice cream. hope you enjoyed your brownie.. haha..
then came sunday.. my family day. decided not to go play tennis so that i can have time with my parents. well, did not really know where to go to eat, so i told my parents why not go maxwell market to eat fish head bee hoon which i was telling them a long time ago. then we also went to get hum chim peng at 7 for a dollar. then my dad also had his hakka yong tau hu and also fish cake and otah.. he really enjoyed his lunch lor.. well, after that, my parents kinda argued a little because my mum dont want daddy to buy supplement pills for my granny. but my dad still buy. my mum's arguement it that, my dad isnt the only child and why cant her other children get it for her. which i think it true.. but well, maybe my dad just being filial.. i also found spore's cheapest vending machine. 70cents and you can get a can of coconut juice or bird's nest drink. and 50cents will get you a f&n gasy drink.. haha.. shiok right.. if only everywhere sells the same price...
then after sending lunch and the pills to my granny, parents brought me to scotts to look at the new Nseries shop.. we checked out the difference between N80 and N73.. then my dad decided to get my a N73. i din really needed the phone as i thought my 6610 can last me for a couple of months more till i ord.. then i will get my own phone. but dad got me the new phone and also it came free with a 6280. kinda good deal la.. so 2 3G phones for $668. reasonable la..
monday was alright in the morning. but as the day went by, it got from bad to worst!!! really bad lor.. so many arrows coming my way and also settling the unsettled arrows from last week. well, had to live with it can manage to accomplish a few of them. hope that if i got for my match tomorrow, i will not get into trouble with my boss(fingers crossed).. then in the evening, met charlene to have dinner at bugis.. then i accompined her to go shopping.. she got a dress and wore it the minute she bought it.. haah. then we went to this really nicely decorated cafe.. its called C.A.N cafe.. the decoration was made of all the vintage classice items.. like old cash register, old type writer. posters from the late 50s-60s.. and also american car plate.. the whole layput of the place is really cool.. took a couple of photos with charlene and maybe i will try to upload onto my blog.. to let you all see.. haha.. going to slepp liao.. tomorrow got match. hope i can get into the next round.
Josh Loh
11:58 PM
Friday, August 18, 2006
what a week it has been man... came back from my mini holiday and when i went into office, all the shit just fell on top of me la!!!
but i shall start with my lovely holiday in kl first. happy thing always say first.. went up to kl for a hoilday with my family.. was there from tue till sunday night.. haha. damn shiok lor.. so long out of singapore.. kind of missed home but did not really miss it either.. haha. duno what i talking la. anyway, really enjoyed myself and i had a piece of mind regarding my ankle.. the specialist there said that i better not go for the operation cause it might be risky... phew!!! no longer going under the knife i guess.. haha..
after see my leg, i went for a eating and shopping and eating and shopping spree.. haha.. love it sia.. bought so many things.. bought shirts from rip curl, nike, british india and fcuk.. haha.. also got two pairs of nike shoes from kl.. one was RM229 the other only RM55.. haha.. why the big diference, its not because the cheaper one is on discount, but because i bought one from the 'chinatown' of kl. its kind of like a fake goods market sia.. all the fake gucci, LV handbag there.. shoes from nike, adidas and puma.. so yeah..
next comes the good food that im dad got us. he kept making me sign for the bills as i have a supplymentary credit card from RHB bank.. really scary lor.. to be able to sign for so many things.. anyway, my dad brought me to eat, shark's fin, adalone, roasted suckling pig, buffet dim sum, pizza hut and so many more.. love you deep deep dad... heez...
sisters came up over the weeken and we all went for a massage at shangri-la.. it was a full body massage for me and my dad and also a quick facial,. really shiok.. when she uses her elbow to press onto your back.. after those tough days in office sitting down, it was really great for her to give me that kind of massage... SHIOK!!!!
shall update till here la.. till i have time again to update.
Josh Loh
10:01 PM
Monday, August 07, 2006
finally going on my holiday from today on.. so happy sia.. finally can take a break from the 'arrows' from office and also finally can do all the shopping that i have been wanting to do for the past few weeks.. haha.. so many things which i want to get.. and i have been waiting for this day to come so that i can finally get them and use them!!!!
well, any of you all got anything to get and want me to get can feel free to message me ok? i will bring my phone along but dont really expect a reply at it will be expensive for me.. haha.. sorry ya? but i will try my best to get it for you if i can..
so now, till i come back from my holiday then.. massage, facial, shopping and good food here i come..
Josh Loh
1:16 PM
Saturday, August 05, 2006
feeling sick now.. just finished four days of ATEC(army training evaluation centre) umpiring.. omg.. its the worst thing to do man.. never do ATEC umpiring!!!! go there on the first day and jus walk up and down the stupid hill.. then go up the hill to sit there and sleep till the NSmen move out for mission.. then this will carry on for the next three days... the worst is that i still need to sit the assualt boat with them when they acutally do nothing on it and i get sea water all over me... then i also have to walk in the rain with them when they march to their objective... all of the above is alright.. the only thing that pisses me off is that when i do all those, they did not even fight anyone of the opfor(enemy) people.. first mission they walk till holland(lost their way) and miss the H-Hour.. then the second mission, the whole company died before they even reach the first trench of the objective.. and the last mission, the opfor people did not come and whack their defence site.. WTF man... haha... so much for umpiring a company for ATEC..
then after all those days without bathing and getting mosquitos to feed on my blood, on friday, i got to go for te debrief when they do not even need me around.. i just go to let the dy comd shiok shiok only... then after that i went back to rest as i was running a slight fever and a sore throat..
yesterday read a email from my dad which made me feel quite depressed.. lost my mood for many things.. i tried to look on the bright side, but i just cannot seem to get it out of my mind... dad wrote in the email that his lady boss(which hates my dad) from his singapore company is being appointed as a Corp executive director(a higher position than my dad).. so my dad said that he might resign and try to look for a new job.. when he came back yesterday, he talked to me for awhile and said that we might need to down size the house and car due to the fact that he might resign.. and that there will no longer be a year end holiday to USA.. it not that i mind staying in HDB or drive a smaller car..i can live with that.. but i just feel sad knowing that my dad is pushing so hard so that we(the kids) can have a better life... he has been working so hard all these years and sometimes we just take him for granted... i really wished that i were working now and be able to live on my own.. just so that his burden will not be that heavy.. its not easy to put two kids through university... its really not easy.. now that he might resign, it will be even more difficult... wonder how will things develop from here on..
later going to DXO to celebrate jun yong's birthday.. but thinking about my dad's words, i kind of lost the mood to go liao..
I LOVE YOU DAD!!! Josh Loh
6:24 PM
