Wednesday, November 24, 2004
well its the last paper of this whole thingy.. haha.. what thingy.. the A levels of course.. finally i do not need to mug and stay up late finishing my homework.. jus slacking, sleeping late and waking up late.. oh man.. i cant wait for that life to come.. oh.. i forgot to add that i can finally play tennis.. oh man.. really missed tennis.. well tomorrow is the last paper.. biology paper1.. 1hour 15min.. after that, it will all be over.. well only did 5 past year papers up till now since monday.. think i should go n mug for one last time.. well i am off to the showers now.. then back to my precious TYS..
Josh Loh
8:34 PM
Saturday, November 20, 2004
guess i found time to blog again.. haha.. well mathematics is finally over.. and so is chemistry.. now i'm just left with one subject.. biology.. well, kinda lazy to study anymore.. it feels as though the holiday is already here.. but i guess not.. and i still got to study.. and i will after this entry.. well my chemistry mcq was kind of a screw up la.. got many careless mistakes.. and for the very first question, i got the correct answer but i shaded the wrong oval.. how stupid can i get.. but then its over already.. so i'm over it.. going to focus on the last two papers.. biology option topic and mcq.. haha.. cannot wait for it to be all over.. i want to go sentosa.. buy prom clothes.. shop... and most importantly, have fun.. then go for hoilday.. and come back to work and TENIS!~!~!~!~!~! i want to whack tennis balls.. haha
Josh Loh
2:00 PM
Friday, November 12, 2004
don't really feel liking say anything.. so just this song will do for me..
Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you
Do you ever wanna runaway?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming
No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
With no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desparate to find something more?
Before your life is over
Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With their big fake smiles and stupid lies
While deep inside you're bleeding
No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
With no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
No one ever lied straight to your face
No one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I'm happy but I'm not gonna be okay
Everybody always gave you what you wanted
Never had to work it was always there
You don't know what it's like what it's like
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
With no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like, what it's like
[x2]
Welcome to my life [x3]
Josh Loh
11:09 PM
Thursday, November 11, 2004
anyway.. yesterday was really a damn tiring day.. had biology in the morning then had maths in the afternoon to evening.. haha.. was brain dead.. but slacked from yesterday till now.. but partly because i was having a bad bad headache in the afternoon.. so i took a nap.. before going out to meet ian, brenda and ian.. we got together for dinner.. we walked around for abit.. before finally deciding on Past Mania.. haha.. we ordered two spicy chicken and one creamy chicken.. a large hawaiian pizza and on dessert for shannon.. we started eating.. then halfway through, ian and i were full.. but we have not touched our pizza yet.. haha.. so we ended up having to force the pizza down our mouth.. then brenda was nice enough to help me and ian eat one piece of the pizza.. one for ian one for me.. haha.. then after that shannon went to mini toons to buy sweets.. after that, we headed to the arcade.. play the four player air hockey.. ian and i beat shannon and brenda 12-7.. haha.. we win.. then after that ian shannon and i went to PP to play pool.. brenda left us to go meet her brother.. cause her brother just booked out from camp.. anyway the bus ride from tampines not really long.. abt 30min.. then we reached PP liao.. then shannon met brian and some of her secondary school friends there.. so we jus played pool till about 11 then we left for home.. haha.. quite a fun day la.. haha
Josh Loh
2:23 AM
its time to blog again.. haha.. did not really have the time to blog that much due to the A level.. took my biology P2 and chemistry P3 and maths P1.. and of course there is general paper.. well biology and chemistry can say that i am hoping to score.. but the same cannot be said about maths.. the paper was tough.. maybe its because i never study.. so i found it hard.. but many people i know whose maths is good also find the paper difficult.. so maybe i still got hope.. so i'll just study for P2 and hope to get an acceptable grade for maths..
Josh Loh
2:19 AM
Wednesday, November 03, 2004
i don't know what is wrong with me.. maybe it is the A's.. maybe it is just myself.. but i feel more and more lonely.. guess i just got to live with it.. and i do not know what's wrong with you recently.. i hope that you will tell me what is wrong.. if it is something i done i will correct.. or maybe you just need time by yourself to sort your things out.. hope you will be better soon.. and tomorrow is general paper.. haha.. kind of worried but i guess i will should remain calm and just take it like it were the prelims.. did not really do much the past few days.. just went to school to consult miss latha and doc wong.. then went to study.. yesterday and today studied with ian, shannon and brenda.. well guess i going off now.. wish me luck.. haha..
Josh Loh
10:40 PM
you don't understand me at all.. sometimes i really wonder if you ever spared a thought for me? sometimes the things you say and ask me to do really just make me really angry.. i don't want to be mad with you.. i know that you care for me.. and i also know that u care of ah mei.. but sometimes it is just really pissifying.. especially the things you ask me to do.. i don't want to get mad or show my temper.. but sometimes i wonder if you know what i feel deep down inside and why i show me temper.. i just wished you all knew what i am going through now..
Josh Loh
10:31 PM
Monday, November 01, 2004
i am an ass.. i am the worst guy that this world has known.. i don't know how to be a gentleman nor do i treat girls the right way.. i was on my way home on the bus and i thought about this.. am i a nice guy? do i really know how to treat a girl correctly? am i an asshole that has no manners? or am i someone who just lives to irritate the shit out of people? i really do not know.. anyone reading can tell me what type of person i am? i guess i am only good at pissing my parents off, making people angry with me and make a fool out of myself.. there's nothing else that i can do better then the above mentioned things.. maybe i should not have been born..
Josh Loh
4:42 PM
