Friday, July 30, 2004

fri nite now.. long day has past yet agi.. today agi, had inter hse bball n tennis.. both fell on the same day AGAIN..but thankfully, i played tennis b4 gg for bball.. agi, it's jess who was my partner.. we won agi but its 5-2 tis time round.. but it was a good start to the tennis finals.. b4 i left for bball, the guys doubles were playin, if we won tat match, we wld win inter hse tennis.. so i left for bball.. had a tough game against pegasus.. was a hard fought match.. but we ended up losin.. by one point agi.. it feels lyk shit to lose by one point.. i felt bad cos i played reali badly today.. onli scored two points.. n i oso missed alot of 3-pointers n free throws too.. so to the draco 1 bball guys, im sorry for my performance today.. but when i gt back to the tennis court, i found out tat draco won tennis.. our guys doubles won 5-2.. so it wasnt a sad sad day for me..then it was dinner at kovac BK.. ty, ashwin, shannon, jess, kenneth, shaun n i all went.. but after dinner onli left me, ash, jess n shan.. so we four chatted till abt 9.45 then left for home..

Josh Loh
10:12 PM

Thursday, July 29, 2004

wad a day it has been..it has been a day of both good n bad luck..in the morn, sch was pretty good.. ended pretty early n had a free period in btw too.. then after sch, had lunch in sch b4 i decided to go to the lib.. tat was where i was bloggin den i met jess.. she jus fin he dialogue session n was waitin for her lit lesson to start.. then after tat, i had inter hse tennis n bball.. i partnered jess agi for mixed doubles.. we won 5-0 against angeline n daniel.. after tat i rushed to the bball court for bball match.. in twist of luck, we lost the match in overtime by 3pts.. damn.. n while reachin my bus stop, it rained so heavily. den i had to run home n i got drenched frm head to toe.. now im runnin a slight flu n fever.. hope to be beta tmr.. then can fight for the gold medal for inter hse tennis.. n the bronze medal for bball..

Josh Loh
9:52 PM

Hope dangles on a string
Like slow spinning redemption
Winding in and winding out
The shine of it has caught my eye

And roped me in
So mesmerizing, so hypnotizing
I am captivated

[Chorus]
I am Vindicated
I am selfish
I am wrong
I am right
I swear
I'm right
I swear
I knew it all along

And I am flawed
But I am cleaning up so well
I am seeing in me now the things you swore you saw yourself

So clear
Like the diamond in your ring
Cut to mirror your intentions
Oversized and overwhelmed
The shine of which has caught my eye
And rendered me so isoloated, so motivated
I am certain now that

[Chorus]
So turn
Up the corners of your lips
Part them and feel my finger tips
Trace the moment, fall forever
Defense is paper thin
Just one touch and I'd be in
Too deep now to ever swim against the current
So let me slip away [3x]
So let me slip against the current
So let me slip away [4x]

[Chorus]
Slight hope
It dangles on a string
Like slow spinning redemption...

Josh Loh
2:34 PM

Sunday, July 25, 2004

Never have I seen a girl
Who's beauty shines through the world
Who has the most beautiful, tender, gorgeous face
Who looks so good, she makes my heart race.

She has the prettiest, most sparkling, dazzling eyes
It'll make you think she's from some place high
An angel from above, you would think
I hope someday, our hearts will link.

Never have I seen a girl
Who's sweetness is known throughout my world
Who has the biggest, kindest, sweetest heart
Who is so great, I'd never want to part.

She's the nicest girl I've ever met
Makes me feel great, for sure, that's a bet
She picks me up when I'm falling down
Making sure I don't make a frown

Well, it's getting close to the time
To tell that girl I want her to be mine
SUPRISE! This nice girl is you
Oh I hope to hear, "I like you too!"

Josh Loh
12:15 AM

Saturday, July 24, 2004

yet another long week has passed.. time jus seem to past by so quickly when ur havin fun.. but when u wished time wld past quickly, it seems to tk forever for one hr to go by.. life is jus so unpredictable.. one day it jus seem to put u thru all sort of torture.. while other days u jus seem lyk ur on cloud no. 9.. but im feelin much beta then i felt a few days back.. mayb its bcos some things sorted out.. n oso bcos i played tennis agi.. n tat i managed to win both the mixed doubles wif jesslyn.. n bball too.. we bet the cetus team first.. then beat the orion team yest.. wed was oso srjcian's day.. cld wear anything to sch.. n tat day i felt tat the class was finally one.. as in the whole class were workin as one in the amazin race.. unlike the normal few cliques tat we had in class..

Josh Loh
11:21 PM

Monday, July 19, 2004

today has been a pretty long day.. finished sch at abt 4.. then went back home to change n go out for a game of bball.. i tot i wld sweat to distract me frm the pain in my heart..mayb im jus over reactin.. mayb im jus senstive.. but its lyk there's nth else tat i can do but to distract myself.. the onli happy thing now is tat im listenin to OCEAN.. tis chinese singer.. SUPER NICE.. well gtg do work now.. i'll prob be back tmr to whine agi..

Josh Loh
10:27 PM

Sunday, July 18, 2004

the whole of today, i hav jus been stonin ard n doin nth useful.. mayb onli at nite where i helped to cook my own dinner.. other den tat, its jus tv n com.. tats all.. nth else.. i feel lifeless.. theres no ore energy in me.. the smile tat i had b4 is dead.. i wonder wad can bring it back.. actually i noe wad can.. but im nt gg to tink abt it.. cos its jus gg to be even more painful.. i reali jus feel lyk lyin in bed, stare into the ceilin, n jus dream.. i jus wanna dream n nv wake up.. remain in the perfect dream n enjoy life in the dream.. i nv wanna come back into reality.. its jus to diff to get thru each day without u..

Josh Loh
11:53 PM

enjoyin the glory of holdin a trophy.. whahaahha...

Josh Loh
4:10 PM

tis is half of our gals team.. but its the guys trophy they are holdin..

Josh Loh
4:09 PM

our guys team wif the trophy at the 45th nationals swimming championship

Josh Loh
4:07 PM

why izit tat love has tis amazin power tat it can control one person totally.. im stil wonderin how love works.. i reali wish to noe the ans.. onli den wil i noe how to prevent love frm takin over my mind n body.. each time i recall tat smile, i jus cant help by sigh.. i sigh bcos tats something tat i wil onli get to keep as a memory.. but i'd come why its impt to treasure every sec u get wif ur frens n family n love ones.. cos u nv noe when it wil be ur last time being ard them..

Josh Loh
1:22 AM

Friday, July 16, 2004

sometimes its reali diff to makes choices in life..n its reali hard to make all ur frens happy wif ur decisions.. yest i had a super hard decision to make.. n it resulted in something which i might come to regret in the future.. when i looked into ur eyes tis morn, i saw tat saddness in ur eyes.. im nt sure if its ur results or was it the msg i sent u last nite.. after seein tat saddness in ur eyes, it jus changed how i felt.. n i kept tinkin back abt last nite when i type tat msg n press the send button, everything jus felt bad.. i duno how to descibe tat feelin.. but there was tis sore feelin in me.. n now, after a long day has passed, i jus feel even worst abt it.. I AM SO SORRY!!!! i promise tat i wil make it up to u.. but i duno if i wil ever get the chance to do so..

Josh Loh
9:39 PM

Tuesday, July 13, 2004

when u all read tis u might tink im silly.. but its reali hard for me.. well.. im cryin while im typin tis.. u may wonder why im cryin.. but the saddest part is tat i myself duno why im cryin too.. some part of me jus feel so sad.. n it jus triggers the tears to come out.. im jus feelin super lonely now.. u noe the feelin tat u get when u need someone u love to be close to u to hold u close n console u.. its the feelin tat u get when u lie alone in ur room on ur bed.. thinkin abt ur life.. but its oso a good chance to remind urself abt the close frens tat hav been ard u to cheer u up n try to make u feel beta... so i guess tis is the way life is.. n i jus got to accept it..

Josh Loh
11:00 PM

Monday, July 12, 2004

ppl keep tellin me tat now is not the time to get involved n a relationship..but then the power of love is so strong tat no matter how hard u try to resist its power, the more u get sucked in.. tats wad happenin to me now.. i act dun reali wanna fall in love now.. but im in love.. n there's nth i can do to undo the power of love.. why does life oways end up lyk tat.. why must we oways go thru the torture of missin someone so badly.. someone tell me why..

Josh Loh
11:01 PM

Sunday, July 11, 2004

wel.. its s sat.. n the day after my swimmin competition.. i noe tat for swimmin i wld nt get any medals.. so i jus went there to try to beta my personal best timin of 1min 50s.. n guess wad.. i reali did beat it.. i clocked in at 1min 39.90s.. haha.. nt a bad timin for me la.. but onli finshed 36th overall in 100m breaststroke.. haha.. v lousy i noe.. haha.. but who cares.. haha.. anywae both the gals n guys team made it into the final.. so i jus hope they wil do well n do srjc proud.. haha.. morn i woke up n watched a little naruto b4 gg to meet my parents for lunch.. was suppose to go tk photo one, cos my sis graduated today frm SMU.. haha.. CONGRATS JIE!!! haha.. but too bad it ranied so my take any photos.. but jus went shoppin.. i bought two shirt frm topshop.. haha.. so kinda happy.. after tat i went to meet ling n kenny for dinner n played ps2 n jus hav fun b4 headin home.. haha.. for more naruto.. haha..

Josh Loh
12:38 AM

Thursday, July 08, 2004

"Obviously" by MCFLY

Recently I've been,
Hopelessly reaching
Out for this girl,
Who's out of this world.
Believe me.

She's got a boyfriend
He drives her round the bend
Cos he's 23
He's in the marines
He'd kill me

For so many nights now
I find myself thinking about her now.

'Cause obviously,
She's out of my league
But how can I win
She keeps draggin' me in and
I know I never will be good enough for her.

No, no
Never will be good enough for her.

Gotta escape now
Get on a plane now. yeah
Off to L.A and that's where I'll stay, for two years.
For cheating

I'll put it behind me(i'll put it behind me)
Go to a place where she cant find me. yeah.

'Cause obviously,
She's out of my leeague,
I'm wastin' my time
'Cause she'll never be mine
I know i never will be good enough for her.
No, no
Never will be good enough for her

She's outta my head
And I never know where I stand
Cos I know I'm not good enough for her
He's good enough for her (for her, for her)

Josh Loh
10:42 PM

Wednesday, July 07, 2004

today got back my chem P3.. haiz.. manage to pass.. but jus barely onli.. haiz.. prayin tat my P2 wil be ok lor.. if i fail, tats it, i wil fail chem.. well other den tat, i my day was pretty fun.. cos i got to play tennis.. haha.. so shiok.. long time since i last played.. anywae today play wif chi yuen n jesslyn.. we first went to yck to play for two hrs.. then we decided tat we wanted to play more so we went back sch to play somemore.. haha.. we jus had fun luffing in the courts n outside the court.. haha.. its jus nice to be able to play tennis agi.. haha.. I LOVE TENNIS!!!

Josh Loh
10:51 PM

Tuesday, July 06, 2004

today is jus another bad bad day.. firstly, I NOT ENUF SLP LOR!!! five hrs of slp isnt enuf for me lehz.. haiz.. en the worst thing is go sch get back result which doesnt help my mood.. but den agi, i onli got myself to blame for the poor grades.. its a lesson for studyin so late.. i jus hope tat it isnt too late to start workin hard now.. there is reali not much time left... there jus one more thing on my mind.. many of u ppl readin tis might noe it.. but its something tat wil keep gg on in my mind.. sometimes i jus wonder, if things were already planned to happen the way it has.. or izit bcos of the choices i took that caused all this..

Josh Loh
9:32 PM

hmm.. lets see.. today was quite a rush day for me.. haah.. first thing in the morn wake up onli then start to rush liao.. forgot to pack my stuff for the NS medical check up cos the day b4, i went wild wild wet n watched wimbeldon.. so slpt late n was tired.. well, the check up was ok la.. all was ok except the last station where i did lyk a mini SAT.. boy did it suck man.. but nvm.. after tat was fun liao.. went back home to change n watch to episodes of naruto b4 headin down to marina bay to meet the tennis team for farewell dinner.. after meetin up, we first went to play pool for abt 1hr, then we went to hav the bbq buffet dinner.. we hav lots of fun tok cock over the dinner table n oso cookin n chattin n makin fun of each other.. after dinner, we played a little while in the arcade b4 gg for a game of bowlin.. haa.. n yet agi, bowlin reacted alot of nice moments too.. haa.. after bowlin, we took some pic n then went our seperate ways.. A VERY NICE DAY OVERALL!!!!!

Josh Loh
12:33 AM

Sunday, July 04, 2004

jus felt lyk puttin tis song on my blog agi.. jus tot abt it.. n i stil love it..

Life Goes On
---------------------------------
Verse 1

Have you ever felt this before,
I just can't seem to take it no more.
It seems so hard to hide,
All the feelings kept inside.
Getting blamed for what,
I don't know.

Chorus

I tried to be myself,
But one thing on my mind.
Kept causing pain and sorrows in my heart.
All these smiles i faked,
God knows for who's sake.
For I must carry on,
Life Goes On...

Verse 2

There's no reason for me to lie,
But you think it's an alibi.
Your lucky I might,
Not put up a fight.
Hurting you, wil hurt me more.

Chorus

I tried to be myself,
But one thing on my mind.
Kept causing pain and sorrows in my heart.
All these smiles i faked,
God knows for who's sake.
For I must carry on,
Life Goes On...

Bridge

I fall in, I fall out,
It's all too much for me to think about.
Why must I,
Live in this doubt.
Of having failures, I can't live without.

Chorus

I tried to be myself,
But one thing on my mind.
Kept causing pain and sorrows in my heart.
All these smiles i faked,
God knows for who's sake.
For I must carry on,
Life Goes On...

Josh Loh
1:46 AM

FINALLY.. the mid yr exams is over.. haha.. can breathe for awhile at last.. but after my last paper, there was stil swimmin trainin.. haha.. but it was ok la.. pretty fun.. cos comp comin so gotta train.. haha.. anywae sat din hav much plan.. so onli ended up stayin home in the afternoon to play cm4 then evenin go play soccer.. played from 7-1030.. boy m i energyless now.. haha.. but then i stil cant slp.. funny rite.. haha..

Josh Loh
1:43 AM